Dana

My thoughts on life, to my beloved

Good morning honey. I love you! I know you haven’t gone down south yet since you aren’t feeling well. I hope you get better quickly and the girls don’t get sick. I think you just need me to be there and you’ll stop feeling sick. It’s too much on the body when your soul mate and lover is gone for this long. It’s like a flower without any sunshine. I’m starting to just wither away to nothing without your bubbly life surrounding mine.

I love you like a drop of rain on a parched dry land. I love you like the sun after a long Alaska winter and I miss you like a fat kid misses fluff’n’nutter.

Hi honey, today you start your travels to the south…I think. I hope you have a wonderful, stress free trip. I’m really excited because this marks the start of a new month and your preparations to welcome me home. I feel so unworthy to be your husband right now. So far you have made this process so stress free for me I can’t even begin to tell you how nice its been. You have a huge, easy-going, fun-loving heart and I trust all the decision you make. I have no doubt that you will find a house that is just right for us. I hope it doesn’t put too much stress on you to travel down with the girls before I get home and start setting things up. Hopefully you will have lots of help from friends and family.

I miss you more than ever and you consume my thoughts, waking and asleep. I love you like there is no tomorrow honey. I am eternally grateful to God that you love me. I’m yours.

Hello my lovely wife. Today is the last day of January, which means less than four months until I can hold you in my arms again. It seems like an eternity right now but I am hoping the time just flies by. You are such a good woman Dana. I love talking to you because you make me smile and you know how to laugh. So many of the guys here sound stressed out when they talk to their wives. I never feel stressed out talking to you. I love listening to you laugh. It makes me feel so special and like you genuinely enjoy talking to me. And you have the best laughs. They usually change about every 12-18 months and the next one is always funnier than the last. I hope you can keep your positive attitude for the rest of your life because it has made my life so easy and enjoyable. I love you with all of my heart and soul. I am all yours.

Hi honey! I love you! I am so grateful that you are mine. Tonight will probably be a short note. I am having a really hard time typing. I can’t spell anything right and I am having a hard time thinking. I think my brain is shutting down. I just want you to know that I love you more than anything in this world and if I could give away everything I have to spend 5 minutes with you I would do it in a heartbeat. I love you and think the world of you Dana. You’ve got me.

Hello my sweet love. I hope you are feeling better. I have been thinking about you all day and wishing I was home with you and my little girls. We circled around a small area today for 2 hours looking for something that fell out of the aircraft. It got me thinking that there is very little that’s actually important in life. So many people were living with just a few clothes, a few animals and a mud house. Yet they have their family. They have a wife or husband that hopefully loves them and they have little kids running around just as happy as if they lived in a mansion in california.

I want my life to be filled with simple pleasures. I don’t need things to make me happy or enjoy life more. I just need you. I need my kids to run around happy to be alive and happy that (hopefully) they have a great dad. I know I am thinking all this because I’m here and you’re there, but I want you to feel cherised and loved more than anything in the world. I hope you feel that way, and if not I will do my best to change it. I love you honey. You are my world.

Hello my love! I am so sorry I haven’t written in the last few days. I was hoping to write something every single day. But alas, our internet was down for quite some time and I wasn’t able to get on her. I feel bead because I had hopes of writing you all these romantic, handwritten notes from overseas. That has clearly not happened but I would you to have something to read about my time here and know how much I miss you. I read about all the guys from the old wars that would write so faithfully to their wives and somehow I have let this go. I hope you still know how much I deeply love you and care for you.

You are sick today and it hurts my heart knowing that I am not there to take care of you. I love nursing you back to health baby. I love going to the store and buying you everything you need to get better. I like making you tea, toast, and getting a hot bath for you. You are so precious and needy why you are sick and I am grateful that I have the chance to hold you and help you. I wish I was there for you right now. I love you.

Good morning love. I miss you so much. I keep telling myself that this will be over soon. I wish your life was not stressful having to run the house and take care of the girls, being mom and dad to them. Hopefully they will forget this entire year ever happened.

I have been reading psalms recently and I am trying to stay calm like David in the midst of the storm. There is really nothing else to rely on but God for strength and endurance. I am glad though that I have you back home to talk to and think about. I would be so lonely without you. You are the sun in my life. The days here have been cold and dreary, just like my soul. I can’t wait to warm you up next winter. I love you.

Hello my sweet love. I miss you. I am sorry I didn’t call you today. I was more tired than I think I have ever been. For some reason my sleep has been terrible this week. I literally sat in a chair for 4 hours last night unable to move, think, or feel anything. I guess I know what it’s like to be a zombie. Anyway I just want you to know how much I miss you and love you. I would give away all the money I have and ever will have to be with you. I do not want to spend another day apart. When I think about the possibility of us being apart again it is too much for me. You and only you make me smile, laugh and enjoy this life that I have been given. There are so many things going wrong with me sometimes I feel like I should give up. But you keep me going. You are what keeps me alive Dana. I have nothing without you. I am nothing without you. I love you more and more every day and I think my heart would burst if I could never hold you again. I love you Dana.

Good morning my sweet love! How I miss you so…My heart was so pained to see you crying and there was nothing I could do to comfort you. I just had to sit there and watch. I am so sorry for the trouble you’ve had these last few months. I wish I could take it all away right now. There is nothing more I hate in this entire universe than seeing you cry and not being able to hold you tight and wipe away your tears. My heart is heavy for you.

I hope that your day gets better today. We do have so many things to be thankful for. We have each other, yet so far apart. We have 2 wonderful, beautiful girls. We have good health and good friends and family. I need to think about those things more than the bad. I hope you have a fun weekend. I can’t wait to see you. I love you more than you could know my sweet flower. I am yours.

I my precious love. I miss you today. I felt so bad when we talked tonight and you said your little lip was quivering because you missed me. I wish I could wash away all your tears and cheer you up with my soft and gentle hug. I long for the day when I can hold you in my arms and not let you go for hours and hours. I can’t wait to warm you up when you are cold at night and stare at your beautiful face when you wake up beside me in the morning. You are the light of my life. You know exactly how to bring a smile to my face and every little thing you do makes me fall deeper and deeper in love with you. You are the best decision I ever made. I love you Dana.